Still me?

さしぶり。げんきですか。

Well, I’m in the middle of finishing my assignments and suddenly decided to write what’s been on my mind then and now. You can say I’m a multi-tasker :p

Okay, btw, back to the topic(which I never mention before but it’s my blog so huh.) Okay,dah.

Basically the topic that I’m trying to open or just briefly write about is about growing up.

I’m the kind of girl who writes to her future self.haha. K, so, in those letters, there are some that expresses my frustrations, sadness, happiness and all kinds of emotions at that moment. Looking back, the past me never thought how all those emotions and experience that I once thought would just crash me, actually builds me. Shape and nurture me into the person I am now.

No, I’m not implying that I’m an oh so angelic nice perfect lady,er I’m far from that. No, it’s just that those experiences made me wiser and stronger, taught me how to think rationally rather than emotionally and I know how to cooperate with certain situations that occur again. Like when I fight with those I care about, instead of building up walls and shuts them down, I learn to control my temper and ego. Though sometimes those emotions do get the best of me.

It’s just that I’m still growing, learning and along the way,, I do make mistakes, I do stray from the road now and then, but I’m still trying to fix it. I’m still fighting for the me that I deserve.

And guess what,, you can be perfect, in the way that you are. Really, if you need to compare yourself, compare the you now with the you before. Yea, you should look around too, but just for inspiration and guidance. We don’t have to be like them, we are who we are in the best way possible. With that being said, it means we do have room for improvement, but in our own way.

I’ve been hearing  all sorts of life stories and I do admire those who through it all, triumphs over the pain instead of giving up. I have my own story, you have your own story. We don’t have to compare our life to see who does it best. Nope, there is no certain indication of how much a person is suffering or being happy. The cycle of that person has it worse than you, that person has it better than you is never ending. Let’s not get into that then.

Growing up, for me, means learning to be the better person. In any kind of case. Being the better person is when you're the person that forgives, doesn't fight unnecessarily, and other sorta stuff that makes you better than the person you're facing. If we could really understand this, I can assure you, you won’t be dwelling on those silly teenage drama on fb or twitter or Instagram. Okay, maybe I do dwell a lil, just a lil tiny bit.haha, I’m just a girl growing up,bear with me. :p

Most importantly, let’s not judge people. Sure, there’s always the first thought and impression, but what you do with that thought is what’s counted.

I’m a sinner, you’re a sinner.

Who are we to judge who goes to heaven or hell?

So there you go.  I’m still growing up, I make stupid mistakes, I act silly, I have my good and bad. So let’s grow up together and be a better person day by day.

がんばってください！

またね。

May Allah bless us all. ^_^

Stay

"Would you stay?"

Over time, I realised that the people that are meant to stay in your life will stay; no matter how hard it gets, no matter how much of your dark side revealed and no matter how often things get ugly, they'll stay. Not because everything is perfect, but because everything is perfectly okay with them. At the end of the day, that person is still the one that we want and need in our life.

When I realised of those people, well, sometimes I'd wonder "How could you stand a person like me?"
The answer, I guess would be just like how I would answer to those who matters to me, " It's just that I don't necessarily like everything that you do,no, I just, I like having you around, you're like a puzzle piece that somehow fits mine, and those downsides of you are just another proof that you're a human and I can live with that. I want to live with that. Our differences let us grow to be more matured in accepting each other. And perhaps our differences could inspire us to be better".

Sometimes, there are people who inspire us, change the way we see things and give us courage but didn't stay for long. Maybe it's just not meant to be or maybe not yet meant to be.
Thank them anyway, that brief moment together did you good and you shouldn't be frowning about it.
That's one way to live a life without regrets.

Grasp the moment, be in the moment.
And don't just ask people to stay while you're going in and out of people's life. Make an effort to stay and make the best out of it.
So that when the time comes for you to go, you'll leave the person with a smile and you'll be smiling as well.

Oh yea, perhaps you should tell the people you want to stay in your life that,, you do want them to stay and they do matter to you. Here's a secret, most people can't read minds not even body language hints whatsoever.
Shocking isn't it?? ('o') Hee


May peace be upon you ^_^

End marks the start

" Lines on the paper are just like lines on the face. Together, they form expressions"

                                                                                                                           - Iznee, 2014 


Regarding the post title, well actually I just finished my sketch book and going to start drawing in a new one. Yeay.
Actually I don't draw or sketch much. I just do it when I'm at the top of my emotions like realllyyy happy, sad, angry, and etc.
So, I'd say drawing is one way of pouring out my emotions. eceyhh.

Writing is from the thoughts, but drawing..it comes from the heart I guess.

I remember this moment when I was in my foundation study and I was feeling so down at that time. I started scribbling on a piece of paper and both my truly beloved friends, aisya n izani starts taking away all of my things. They cleared up my table so I could draw and let it all out.huu
It was really a touching moment for me. They didn't say anything, and just let me be in my own moment. A prime example of action speaks louder than words I shall say.

I'd like to share my sketch book drawing here. Before this I used to draw on loose paper and yeah, I lose most of the drawings -.- .

20/03/2013

02/01/2014

04/03/2014

13/05/2014

23/05/2014

21/06/2014

30/07/2014

Each drawing has their own stories as it exist only when I feel like drawing.
I used Sharpie markers, Artline markers, Pilot Black gel pen and pencils.

It's Ramadan again, Alhamdulillah. So, happy fasting, and may this Ramadan our ibadah is better than the last. Amin. ^_^

One, two, go.

Take a step. Small step. If you can't, just stand there. Stand for a while till you have that courage to step again. The most important thing is, never give up to go forward.

                                                                                                                                    - Mama, 2014

There is, at a point of our life when circumstances kinda knock us down. So hard that we feel like we can't go any further. So tough that we feel, this is it. That's it. But then, my Mama gave me those words. True enough, sometimes no matter how strong we tried to be, we just feel like we couldn't bear it anymore. That's when we need to halt for a while. Take a deep breath, clear out the mind and see which path are we going to.

It's not easy,it takes time. But remember :

So, verily, with every hardship, there is ease. 

                                                                   (94:6)

It is repeated in the Al- Insyirah that for every hardship there will be ease, InshaAllah.

We just have to be patient and endure the pain for a while. "A while" might be long for some. But just remember that He won't put us through a test that is more than we can handle. 

Pray more, live your life more,spend time with your loved ones more and most importantly, don't lose yourself through all the storms.

Often, when we face hard times, we seem to discover our potential, what we're made of, more than during our happy times. Maybe because our limits are pushed and we somehow have to adapt and change, if needed.

So, let's not take the hard time wholly as a negative thing, it sure has a positive side too.

Take one step at a time. One day, everything will be better. InshaAllah. ^_^

Peace and Hatred

"Forgive not because they deserve forgiveness, but because you deserve inner peace"

Inner peace. Suddenly I remembered Kungfu Panda.haha,okay now back to what I'm trying to imply based on this saying.

Hello, I'm in my study week and instead of making notes, I'm updating my blog. K.

Anyway, a lot of stuff happened recently. Oh well,stuff will keep on happening till our last breath.
So, a friend asked me this, "What did you learn from this?" (in a certain situation) I took a deep breath and thought of what to answer. At that moment, I couldn't give a specific answer. Now, after some thinking(eceyh) I guess this is what I learnt :

1. Forgive and forgive and forgive. Forget what they did, but, don't forget the impact of it.

All of us somehow, sometime, somewhere, do wrongdoings. Maybe directly to Allah, and maybe to someone without us noticing. Therefore, forgive others and pray to Allah that those that we hurt shall forgive us too. We would want forgiveness right? So why be selfish in giving forgiveness? #notetoself

Forget what they did, but not the impact. This simply means, take lesson from it. BUT, don't hold grudges. We don't know maybe the next day they already repented. But we still have grudges over them. Now ask ourselves, who's at loss now?

Not only that, holding grudges means putting a certain spot for that frustration and hatred. We won't hurt anyone but ourselves by doing that. We hurt ourselves by thinking " That person did this to me" and we'll have flashbacks on what they did. Then, we'll get hurt. See, we just hurt ourselves.

I know it's hard, trust me, I'm a horticulturist*tetibe*
Serious talk, I do know it's hard.

It takes time, though some people might get over it faster than others. Alhamdulillah for them. :D
For us, who take some time to recover, it's okay, take one step at a time. It'll all be alright, InsyaAllah.

Sometimes, when we depend too much on people, we tend to forget the real helper, Allah.
Maybe that's why Allah take the person who's been helping us, maybe for a while, or forever, to help us remember the real helper. We shouldn't depend on humans, we depend on Allah.
And He will give help either directly or through His creatures. So let's not sweat it shall we?

Grant us clean and pure heart, mind and soul Ya Allah. Amin.

That's it for now,peace be upon you. ^_^

Castles in the sky

"Dream a little bit more, put in effort bigger than before because you'll never know which part of your dream shall come true."

Don't just dream it, do it. I think this phrase is heard a lot already. But sometimes, people forget to see another part of dreaming; the vast possibility of how things should be.

Some people might say, " Yea I have a dream, and it's a rational logical kinda dream" Sure, that is correct as well but, it's a DREAMMMM. Just dream on, dream big, dream illogically, dream as far as your imagination can go but just remember one thing : Put your dream to work. Make it a reality.

I always imagine what I can be and do in the future even when I know it might be quite impossible, I still hold on to that dream. Why? Because I'll never know when or which dream shall come true.

Though you have to remember to grasp the reality as well, dream is just like a,,motivation for you. A drive to keep you going. In fact, if one of your dreams does not come true, you can always move on to the next one. Or keep on working on that dream at the same time. Up to you.

Making your dream a reality is the real deal. Will your effort be as far as your dream stretches? Are you willing to take on the challenges you might face in pursuing that dream? Surely those who dare to dream must also be bold and brave, a warrior of some sort. eceyh,over. 

Ehem, okay so what I'm trying to line out here is that with my encouragement to you to dream bigger, make sure your actions are bigger. It's the only way to make it happen anyway.

Along with the dream comes hope and expectation. And with those two, disappointment can tag along.
And when that disappointment kicks in, you need to have faith that it'll be alright.

People who are afraid to hope, shall never get to anywhere. You'll be too scared to face the disappointment that can break your heart. It shouldn't be that way though.

Maybe you didn't realize this, but being disappointed means you know you can do it. Maybe not on the first try, the second or even the third but you'll make it,somehow and someday. You just have to have the faith.

And remember, for everything that happened, be it good or bad, there's a lesson to it.

So open up your heart and mind. It's okay, everyone gets hurt every once in a while. How you treat the wound and what you do after that shall make a difference.


May Allah bless all of us and grant us our wishes in His best way. Amin.

Writing out le thoughts

Sashiburi. Em, maybe that's how to write it down. It means been a while. I guess. (influence from japanese drama la ni.hee)

Anyway, as the title stated, I'm writing the thoughts that's been lingering through my head for quite a while.

Well, we should share stuffs that are beneficial to others right? Macam perasan my thoughts bagus pula kan. Takpe, bear with me. :D

#1 : 

If you're thinking of doing something good, DO IT right away. You might not get that same feeling or chance again.

If you're thinking of doing something bad, HOLD IT. You might not be able to repent some other time.

#2 :

While other people say " Don't judge someone because you don't know the story behind it" ,

 I'd say " Don't judge someone because you're in no position to judge them."

#3 :

Hold on to what matters most

#4 :

Pray hard - in happiness, grief, sadness, anxiety, content, mad, calm. You just have to pray to God, and have faith that He'll make it all better.

#5 :

If we really miss someone, pray for them.

#6 :

Be courageous. There's always a new castle of dream to build.

#7 :

It's never too late to be that great and awesome person you want to be.

#8 :

Find peace in His words.

#9 :

I am never perfect and won't be. But at least, I could say I've given my best.

#10 :

Loving someone is accepting their flaws and beauty. 

Guess that's why our mothers love us unconditionally.

#11 :

Spread your knowledge. Put it to good use. That's the reason why we learn anyway.

#12 :

Do what you love, do it passionately. 

Guess that's all for now. Maybe there'll be some other thoughts to come. MAYBE. :D

Let's pray that all of us will be under Allah's blessing now and forever. Amin.